Aki

A crawling touch
Went up my side
Who has taken me by surprise
So cold and heartless is his plan
To commit demise and rectify

A shriek is heard
Who lays in the shadows
The breath came down my cheek
A single tear came and I weep
All I try to hide
So he cannot come and remember why

Why here
Why me
Who told you I can leave
Why this
Why not bliss
Why can't I reminisce

An echoing charm
Creeps down the cold bricks
Trying to find skin to prick
To take over and control
The mind, body and soul

We shriek as one
Because that was it
There was no one grabbing at my wrist
No spell to work it's magic in
All was gone, no one to kiss

Now the haze has been lift
There was no hope, just one wish
One wish that seemed forbidden to me
Because you held me down, to not forgive
One wish could cure this hurt
One wish to desert this complete horrid dirt

One wish, could cause no more desires
Bade off all worthless goodbyers
Wanders that meant nothing more
Than the air whipping off the crests of the Dead Sea
One wish, I whisper in the night
One wish that could cause my heart to catch on fire
One wish that would bring the world to me

Only one could cure me
I seem to have choosen thee

Driving on that cold winter night
Snow blurring my sight
Fog and frost distract my mind
Racing lights all around me
Trapping me with fright

Almost home
Away from this road
How a shiver runs down my spine
Radiating throughout my soul
How did I happen to cross this path
When all was done to avoid and let it pass

Squinting through the winter frost
Try to whip it away, but remained
Flashing red lights
Stop then proceed with caution
What do I see going past that car's lights

Narrowing my vision
Through the dirty glass
Do I see what became alive that fateful night
Disturbance runs through the beams
Are those two legs I see

Widening eyes realizing what I see
The air clenching in my throat
I can barely breath
Quickened is my breath
Why does the return to me

A turn of the head
Is what it makes
A crackling smile
From ear to ear
Another tremor racks it's nails down
To reawake

Welling fluid in my eyes
I come to realize they are mine
Tears from fear, from love
From the heart
The light reflected of his belt
Just above were it hit and broke

Gripping and seeing
What was just dream
I forced that on me, just a dream
But my eyes are still unwashed
I still see what happened on that winter night

Red light, turned to green
I planted that foot down
Gaining speed to drive it away
That haunting smile of pure evil
Directly from the pits of Hades

Had that event occurred
Had he been hit and then spread over
Darkening blood dried on the lights
Obscuring the view forever from the night
His head turned unnaturally
In it's own pool of blood
His face had been turned to me

To allow me to see
That it was actually me

I welcome those who are dreamers of dreams
Those who forget earthly things
And bask in the water springs

Everyday brings all new things
From racing hares around the trees
To butterflies drifting in the breeze

But those are childish dreams
Come to my haven where all things bleed
It welcomes and beckons those who have no will
So join me and soon all things will swirl

I'm on the edge of the world
The dividing line from heaven and the hurl
The other Son whispers deadly things
But do not worry, he only brings dreams

They crawl and become attached
So for sure you will not be coming back
Back to that grounded place, not up in space

You are allow to dream ghastly things
Things never portrayed in your wildest dreams
Desire of power and a burning passion for lust

He calls on these things
Things that you will never believe
They are motioned out to grow and spread out

It's like a disease of the mind
You, the beholder, do not even realize
That you have released this beast

But like a loving Mother
You will be nourished and satisfied
Never will you be strained or crucified

Allow yourself to be a dreamer of dreams
Jumping and run about
Shall I reserve a place for you
When He comes to say, Hello to you

These staring eyes
Watching the hands of time
Turning and passing
While my mind is trapped in my dyeing

Sorrow filled my heart
Hollow is all I felt
My wings, torn and burned
You took away my sense of loss
As I'm hunch and clouded by darkness, the clock strikes once

The threads of my heart once had no end
They only seemed to being again
In the heart that once was mine
Now, all is forgot and rots
The clock drums on, as my heart beats not tonight

The deadening silence had enclosed me
The space in the air grew colder, deepening
I touched the ragged holes on my back
Only to weep because I could not come back
While it spread it's fingers out, the clock clicked on and on

Now my eyes have dried
Never will there be more tears to cry
All was lost, along with myself
I wake in this given state
This soulless world of not dyeing

The hands keep pushing
Keep moving
As it sneers at my withered self
It has nothing to give, it just is

I seem to have come to realize
I have caused my own demise
Have I halted my true beliefs
To keep me begging, on my knees

It's origin is unknown
No labeled mark upon any map
No roads to lead you there
It all comes from the soul that you behold

Following the rules to be include
Is not true worth, it just hurts
It may seem easy and alright to be
Those who see but never believe

Come, take my hand
You have been the only one
To make my life, so run
Run with me to see the greatest sea

All rushing and churning
No set current, to take you unaware
You may get caught here or there
But soon you shall be where you stare

The truth lies within your eyes
All serene is seen
But you are taring at the seams
Let it go and all will be known

Reject the set track
Leave to the path unbeaten
Return to me
I can help you see

As my mind drifts
Along the flowing path
A series of thoughts, emotions, images
Collect and reanimate

Dabble in the past, of my mind
Only to relive and become alive
You tend to think it's strange, not well
But it's the norm I created, here so very well

Glimmers of smiles and giggles
Erupt and then are dashed away
To keep them from the light of day
As to me, they are just dreams

All that is not you, I embrace
That is why I live, to create
But it doesn't matter what pallet you use
Only that you choose to be amused

Fantasies often sprout in my head
True, they are not real, just what I thought
They are just streams of bright paint
To merge as one to help inspire and duplicate

It's time to see these dreams
To believe in more than you and me
You say live in the now and let go of dreams
But why do we have a brain, just wait

I welcome those who love, not judge
No matter who or what you have come to love
All is teaming with life and beauty
I am immersed in art, not just the motions of life and fury

Step on the path, of fantasy
It puts up no walls, only falls
It's deliciously contagious what you have dismissed
Come and believe or you will soon miss the bliss

The chance to change one's life
Is a chance to swim in the gentle water

Lazily tread along with no effort
While the warm liquid gold
Gives life and wonder

There's no thinking to do
No decisions to choice

Just calm before the storm
Enjoy this moment of reward
Because soon you shall be bored

Soon this shall end
But you will sure meet it again

The gentle rocking
Turns into just a beach
Rough sand beneath your feet

Where has the comfort gone
It was once found but now has ceased

All my demons
Have come up to feast
Where did that heaven go to sleep

Disappointment is written all over my face
I don't even try to erase or duplicate
Feelings of happiness or love
For the love of one to another

All I know is that you're a part of me
Even though my eyes have never set upon thee
Nothing rational is what I am experiencing
Please tell me these feelings

We carry on our daily lives
Knowing that one is there
While the other is here
It's the wrong place, at the wrong time

Truly I see that we are the same
We see that one is purely there
Never changing or praying
Just me, so please

I live in the dark
When you bask in the light
The cold snow is here all around
When all you feel is the sweet Sun's delight

When you lye in the garden
Im here burrowed in covers
You are in tomorrow
While I live in yesterday's today

Will time catch up
To bring us to one
Will your time slow
Or shall I speed up

This seems to be a disease
Always hated when under taken
But loved and wished
When all is healed and not real

This time has passed
And it seems to only
Bring me pain to realize the known

You are there
While I'm stuck here
All I want is over many seas

This is not my fantasy
But reality
But I cannot being to get closer

We feel this draw
Without being able to follow
What is true and real

The smiles placed by you
On me
Are caused when you agree

All my likes
Are the same to you
Its binds me more, closer, so true

This seems to occur
More often then not
All my loves are far, not near

All I want
Is to fly on metallic birds
Fly to you and never leave

The Sun will be hot
And all will be forgot
But these concrete walls
Are up, to stop

Fantasy is a world of change
Always there to come and share

Reality is always here to stay
Never to go away

Day dreams and seams
Are where we need to be

Forever fantasy
Never reality

Never doubt this power
It can never be totally covered

Travel far and wide
Till you see your hearts eye

These visions that I see
Are where I want to be

I let them come
To be lived and believed

Sometimes I feel I should deny
This control it has over my mind

Forever fantasy
Never reality

Clouds of comfort and joy
Sometimes love beyond this shore

I live to see those days
To maybe, be gained

I kid myself to think these things
They are just dreams

But all I think of
Are of my fantasies

Sometimes they haze
And being to fade

But, always will it be

Forever fantasy
Never reality

Keep on going that way
Only if you want to throw your life away

I only stand and keep still
Not talking, just watching

Your demise
Is held in your eyes

Like your angel
I keep my mind with yours

But like a demon
I point you towards that road ahead

When you trip and fall
I hesitate to come to your rescue

All can come and hurt and break
But nothing can tear it away

You allow these hills to discourage you
Never rising up, over them

You look back
With desperate eyes

Never knowing
How you will die

I just stand
To watch
And let you fall

How come
I can't stay away from you
Nothing is what you bring
But you call to me
To follow thee
Into the dense trees

Wandering eyes
Is what you posses
But all I see is you and me
You need to leave me be
But you beckon
And take my free

Your blazing gaze
Intertwines me to see
All of you but none of me
I should tell you to go
And let me be
But I seem to never leave

All you do
Withholds me from myself
While I let it in
And never doubt
That you need me
As much I believe

My twisted reality
Is my fantasy
They have combined as one
Because you have undone
All my world
From me to be

No escape is possible now
Never can I return to town
You know that I can never leave
You are the drug of ecstasy
To be calm and me

All my life
I will search for thee

To come and bare
My feelings, to share

You and I, will always be
I need you, to be me

Who is that someone
Who will I deserve

Will he be
You in the street

Or someone over there
To far to see, just where

I seem to be content now
Not needing or pinning for one

Twisted in my heart
I ache for another

To escape this world
And see another

Always searching
But never seeing

Fate will let us be
It will bring you to me

I long to feel that gentle touch
That simple rush
It burns in my thoughts

Quivering lips
Under your finger tips
How I long to feel it again, my love

The glow of the moon
Was just enough
To see your emerald eyes that night

The grasp of your hold
Was not enough
I even screamed, dont let go

So smooth and marble was your skin
How can I begin
You are like no other, even though you were so subtle

That simple act
Bounded us together, just like that
While our souls combined and made us one

Together, intertwined in body and soul
So much was exchanged without being told
Just one gentle kiss is all I reminisce

Its hard to think right
When Im not tight, in his embrace
No warming hands, to steady my soul

That full moon night
Has changed me
He saved me

Christmas time
Is usually bright
Not so much
Went all is a fright
Not so white
And not so cold
That Saint Nick
Will bring all winters coal

Hes not the only one
To share some delight
This man or beast
Comes when all
Is as dead as night
With his crooked teeth
And scary screech
He comes
To pull you off your feet

He does not say
Ho ho ho
But brings the words
Oh no no
He will not leave
Sugar and gum
For the children's fun
But take and break
What is already awake

He slumbers all year
To spread
His kind of holiday cheer
So dark and electric
Is his stare
There will be no
Saint Nicholas to scare
Beckons and calls
To the children in bed
So he can have
All his presents
In his Christmas bed

I don't know what I was thinking
When you came and took me away

So sweet and tender was your touch
You became all my hopes and dreams

To this day, you lye with me
To keep me safe and warm

We need each other, to balance out
All our vices and burst outs

I am you and you are me
And thats how it's supposed to be

When your here
My world is filled and complete

We live, love and laugh
And thats whats meant to be

All can be destroyed and thrown away
As long as your here to stay

I could not live without my love
To keep me semi sane

You fill my mind with pleasant things
And keep the shadow's from covering the light of day

Ups and down, may come around
All can be passed when we come together at last

Lets leave this place and not look back
Too see that it's meant to be

I am you and you are me
And there is nothing inbetween

Why is my vision fading
Your out of my reach
My voice, lost in the abyss
Of your leaving
With you gone
Has brought on my demise

I can't sense you here anymore
My eyes lie
Watching the shadow
Of you leaving

These tears are welling up inside me
Stop this once more
Before
I feel hollow
Not living
How can you say this
Then leave me dying
How is this life possible
Without my soul

You still stand in front of me
But your not here
Not real
Only your shadow remains to feel
I'd rather it left along with you
It tares me limb from limb
For you to cause such a glimmer of hope
To arise from my ashes

You yelled and screamed at me
That this was not to be
I can't live without your gift
The gift of your breath
Your smile slowly taking shape
After the sweet summer glow
All your features rising and spilling
Onto me, to give me breath
To give me life and reason
To continue on

I can't feel the tips of my fingers
My conscious slowly beginning to be hazy
It's still there
Watching
Fading
I know you still need me
To sense life around you
Once more

A single tear falls down my cheek
The echo of that tear
Renouncing all my joy
Is all I hear
All my senses drowned out
By the silence that you felt
Why my dear

I call for you to return
The air is not reaching me
I can't seem to breath
But now I don't care
Without you there
I am not there

You ripped my heart and soul out
When you just felt
Left
All I felt in my life
Was from your being around me
I was never here till you lived
Breathing

I feel nothing
See nothing
Want nothing
Nothing

To simply put it
I just need you

Your still sitting there
With all the pain still inside
You know I will not pity you
You knew he was no good for you
Be wise

This has gone on long enough
The whole world is calling for you to come
You know I'm here for you
To help you along
Please come

You still say no
But, just get over it
Just get over it
Your too young to feel this much
Your day has just begun

Get out of bed, unlock the door
Just come
You need to live, to breath
I will only help you this once
So you need to learn this, just get out

It's all in your head
You think hes crying over you
It's all fun and games to him
Not that painful for him to give in
All this time is wasting, lets go, let go

You still say no
But, just get over it
Just get over it
Your too young to feel this much
Your day has just begun

All that love was wasted
Real yourself in
And let it out
The one will come one day
And it surely was not him

But, you still said no
You still won't get over it
You just won't get over it
You thought he was the one
And that your Sun's eyes closed in
On you

All the light is shinning down
Down, deep beneath the ground
I shade my eyes from this sight
I need to leave and shield my life

I stalk in the shadows
Not in the streets of your delight
The children run and play while
I haunt your dreams at night

The Sun seems to burn
But all the people scream for more tonight
All I want is for the Moon to rise
So I can come and petrify

You must shiver at the thought
Of the sun set, the dusk
Its my time to shine when
All you go and hide

I gently walk down the halls
With a grin stretching from ear to ear
Shadows are my second hand
They help me when you meet your end, your fear

Try to run and hide
The game is what I live for
I keep my stride, slow and steady
While my hands shake because I'm ready

While you cower in the ally
Deep within the street
I hover
Ready to silence with one swipe

My blood flys within my veins
I'm getting so anxious, it doesn't wain
As I come down for one last kiss
I see your eyes widen with laughter

All was well and perfect then
But then all the light spilled out again

We're coming close to a point
A point of no return

All the noise you yell at us
We take and throw it back

It makes no sense for you to tell
All the lies to us as well

We retaliate and punish you
For the things you have done now and before

We all laugh and curse at your face
But, somehow you love what you have disgraced

Your causing a riot beyond your dreams
All of us will come and scream

You need to wake up and smell the roses
'Cause soon you'll be counting cockroaches

I don't mind your fun and jokes
I can take it in stride and won't die

Soon this needs to end
I hope your death will not be your end